Hope Mon Amour

"My question is, can I still believe in just-being-myself when the very notion of the self is challenging for me to grasp - when people forego reality all the time, in cyberspace, to act like someone they're not? People post pics in which they look better than them [true] selves. At least I've definitely done this in the past, not lately though, to pretend I'm named Lola (this memoir is about her); it's a different name than Morgan for sure, a doctor once said 'more feminine' and acknowledged it's not all that abnormal, for anyone, to have an alter ego."

This work is unfinished; the typos or confusing-sentences bother me but I just don't have time. Some passages would be triggering to actual American celebrities, but I do not have evidence that they would read. Parentheses, brackets, and hyphens are used to both help create and help eliminate ambiguity in what I'm really trying to convey. I would need a good editor for this project, it would make a big difference and so would have to out the editor's name on the cover (at the bottom: "edited by"). That's common on books and it would be for when/if it's revised and re-released. Just something I thought of.

I think that could be what makes or breaks a draft that shows some potential [I uploaded this on 8.22.2022]. But, yeah, it is a draft. Maybe it costs so much because I don't want people to read it yet but I do want to put it aside somewhere, or -- it's because literally I had to make it cost that much to get some compensation. I am not sure how I feel about this.