Beautifully Ruined

I feel I'm losing it all, everything I've kept near and dear--I'm shoving it away because I don't know how to keep my life in order anymore. What was simply fine and okay is no longer either. My world is growing into one black hole, dragging me down. I've discovered my monsters, I've found my demons, and to make sure no one goes down with me, I've given them an out. I've given Zephyr the out he deserves. But was it worth it? Just when Joey's life seemed to be getting better, one night sends her memory into overdrive. Not able to cope, she pushes away the only friend she could count and tries to cut out all the rest. When a new student walks into her class and is assigned the seat next to hers, Joey's not sure whether punch him or kick him below the belt with how forward he is. All this while fighting the urge to go back and beg Zephyr to be hers again. When the unthinkable happens, she has a hard decision to make--the hardest she's ever had to make: to stay or go.