Together Like This

This might be a slippery slope.Joel Wilkinson is many things. Funny, charming, charismatic, the best snuggler in the world. The boy who I share a bed with every single night? even though we're not dating.Did I mention we also kiss sometimes?Yeah, it's definitely a slippery slope, but it's one I want to slide down-just slowly.Because here's the thing, I'm messy at best. And Joel? isn't.One more thing about him? He's the most loving, patient guy in existence. He gives me everything I need, often before I realize I need it.But I know I'm not in a place to give him the same. Joel has been my friend since I was five. He's been my safe place in hard moments, never giving up on me no matter what I do. I can't lose that.No matter how strong I seem right now, knowing me, if I rush into this, I will mess it up.So I'm taking it slow, blurring lines I refuse to cross, and praying that I don't push him too far and make him walk away before we ever truly get started.