Twin Flame Runner Experience - 11 11 -: Awakening to UNCONDITIONAL Love

My soul recognized my Twin Flame before my mind did, and this was also the cause of the chaotic emotions that I was feeling because my heart was so overwhelmed by the conflict between my soul and my mind. This also triggered me into "running" from our connection.I was relieved for a moment when we physically separated. I was excited about having my life back to normal as before. I was looking forward to having some space to re-think everything. I was looking forward to having some peace finally within myself.He wanted us to keep talking to each other whenever we wanted. My Twin Flame was looking forward to talking to me any time and he deeply expressed how much he missed me. He could write about how unique it was spending time with me was and he was looking forward to seeing me soon. The first week of our physical separation was so dark for me, I was filled with feelings of sadness. I could not see how my life was going to be peaceful if my Twin Flame was not in my life. I went into a moment of grieving my soul, and every day was different in intensity.The love that I feel for my Twin Flame is so strong that I never know what to do with it.I started to deny the connection from my Twin Flame by blocking our communication. I thought that if I stopped talking to him, all the confusion and the emotional pain of missing him would heal immediately. I was wrong to assume this because things only got worse when I ran away from my Twin Flame.I was not kind to him when I was attempting to run because I was feeling fear within myself which I projected on to him inform of anger and frustration. If you have experienced being a runner Twin Flame, you will also agree with me that there is so much underlying fear, emotional wounding, and pain that pushes you to repel your Twin Flame and the connection. The fear that you feel from within yourself pushes you to feel insecure to share unconditional love with your Twin Flame. My awakening to the love that I feel for my Twin Flame brought me to learn many lessons of love and the most importantly I learned self-acceptance and self-love.If you are a runner who lives a busy life without any time to research your new feelings and Twin Flame awakening, it is much easier to run as fast as you can away from your Twin Flame partner and anything connected to it.For me, some friends were advising me to see a psychologist or a doctor because after my Twin Flame left, I got worse before I became better. I couldn't eat because I lost appetite for food. Sometimes I was hungry but I had constant heart flutters and palpitations because of the shared energy transfer with my Twin Flame. Sometimes I could get sick and throw up after feeling the heart flutters for me to feel better. (I was always love-sick but I couldn't tell my friends.)I could not run from my Twin Flame no matter how much I tried because the connection only got stronger every time I tried to put on a resistance to forget him.When I was new to this experience, I could block my Twin Flame on all our messaging systems and his social media and then unblock him after a few days when I missed him too much.Before acknowledging the unconditional love for my Twin Flame, I had to crawl through my pain, fears, personal insecurities and heal my core wounding. I had to dig deeper within myself to embrace the broken parts of me starting with hugging my inner child. All this happened during the Dark Night of the Soul phase.After I went through the Dark Night of The Soul, I texted my Twin Flame one night and said: "I ACCEPT you, I feel you and I am here with you". I didn't understand why I said those words to him but I felt like I needed to. Once I echoed my deepest feelings, it released me and the resistance that I was putting up to feeling the connection faded.I transitioned into new feelings of Acceptance of my Twin Flame connection which pushed me into SURRENDER.