NO Wil Bil

written in∫-“The-“(Non-“(Con)”-ventional)”-Writing-Styl(e),” “(Use-Of-“(Co-L-or)”-Cod(e)-ing)”“(nO)”-WiL)”-BiL)”-∫is∫-“(A)”-“(Gray)”-Zone)”-“(Con)”-fused)”-“(Con)”-flicted)”-“(Con)”-founded)”-“(Proud)”-“(I)”-“(Con)”-∫with no will be the individual me because∫-“The-“(Boy”-“God”-“Con”-“Ta/Al)”-“(egO)”-Bridge)”-Fix)”-For)”-“(the-black-emotional-hole-problem)”- ∫created∫-“The-“(Gray)”-Zone)”-Of-“(emotional)”-Uncertainty)”-Within).” “(nO)”-WiL)”-BiL)”-∫does not∫-“(Know)”-“(Who-“(I)”-“A”m)”-“(Where-“(I)”-“A”m-To-gO)”-“(What-“(I)”-“A”m-To-Do)”-∫because∫-“(After-“(Failing)”-To-Make-“A”n-“(egO)”-Bridge)”-“(Affection”-“Approval”-“Attention)”-“(Con)”-nection)”-With-“(MomDad),” ∫the individual being me at birth became∫-“(A)”- “(Gray)”-Zone)”-“(e)N-igma)”-To-“(Myself).”“(the-feeling-like-“(a)”-nothing)”-“(nO)”-WiL)”-BiL)”-Adopts-“(A)”-“(Gray)”-Zone)”-“(Impassive /Apathetic)”-Demeanor)”-∫because∫-“(Adopting)”-“A”n-“(Attitude)”-Of)”-“(Gray)”-Zone)”-Indifference)”-“(Makes)”-“(nO)”-WiL)”-BiL)”-“(feel-“(Less)”-like-“(an)”-adopted-child-left-on-the-doorstep).” “(nO)”-WiL)”-BiL)”-“(Pretends)”-“(It)”-Does-“(Not-“(Matter)”-To-“(M(e)”-∫by∫-“(e)M-bracing)”-“The-“(external-“(God)”-Of-“(Matterism)”-∫because∫-“The-“(Ta/Al)”-“(external-“(God)”-Of-“(Matterism)”-“(Helps)”-“(BiL)”-“(Cope)”-With)”-“(A)”-“(Bleak-“(Affection”-“Approval”-“Attention)”-Outlook).” “(nO)”-WiL)”-BiL)”-Uses-“The-“(Ta/Al)”-“(external-“(God)”-Of-“(Matterism)”-“A”s-“ (A)”-“(Pre-“(e)M-ptive)”-Strike)”-∫because∫-“The-“(external-“(God)”-Of-“(Matterism)”-“(Counter)”-Balances)”-“The-“(Perceived)”-Threat)”-Of-“(U)”-“(R(e)-jecting)”-“(M(e).””