Beautiful Deceit

I'm damaged.I've been through too much in my eighteen years.Between joining the Bloody Psychos and mourning my best friend,I'm going a little crazy.If the enemy is no longer the enemy, you can jump in bed with them, right?You'd think I'd be happy with five guys in my life, but I can't control myself.What can I say? Bad boys are my weakness.The Bloody Psychos and the Devil's Armada have my back, but now I need to have theirs.Sacrifices must be made to keep them safe, and I'll do anything.Even sell my soul to a monster.The only person I'll be able to rely on is myself.Deceiving everyone I love is the only way this can go.I just wish they'd let me go without a fight.I'm going downhill fast, and no one can save me.In destroying everyone around me, I'll destroy myself too.Nothing can compare to the emotional pain of hurting the ones you love.This can only end bloody.I just never expected the one holding the gun would be my guardian angel.